There are those certain things in life that surprise you, amaze you, and you become lost in their beauty and significance, which brings you full circle to glorifying God. Sometimes these are little things.
I seek quiet, when I can. Lately I’ve been working 5-6 days a week, and am rarely home. I have been trying to train myself to seek out the quiet moments, find them when I can. Maybe on the short fifteen minute break I get, sitting in a quiet room, just enjoying the silence.
Two seconds count. In less than a second a small insect disappeared in front of the red toad named Pimples (I didn’t name her).
“Do it again!” I said. And it reminded me of when Chesterton talked about the repetition of things. How the sun doesn’t rise every morning because it’s on a cycle, but because God is actively commanding the sun to, “do it again.” We have become discontent with repetition, with the simple things like the rising of the sun, or the look of a daisy. We desire something new because we have grown weary and tired of the things that used to amaze us. “We have sinned and grown old and our Father is younger than we.” It is from a great energy that a child is able to enjoy a trick performed in front of him a thousand times over. We have lost something as we have grown. When we weary of the little things, we pursue new things, and we are constantly on a running journey to discover something new, to be pleased in a different way.
But God isn’t like that, he’s not like us. A truly murmured “Thank you,” for his gifts every day never fails to please him. He never is tired of hearing our prayers, our prayers that are so repetitive in their essence, never tired of hearing our praises sung to him. “Do it again,” he says.
I have tried to find little things that amaze me. I have tried to shut out the loud, the busy, and to welcome the introspection and the quiet. I’m not trying to isolate myself, I’m trying to discover the secret to living simply.
The toad’s pink tongue flashes out, and my mind isn’t fast enough to catch the movement, but the bug isn’t there in front of her any more. Pimples doesn’t move. She’s just there with her never turning gaze, her body sunk back comfortably on her haunches. I love to hold her in the palm of my hand, and to look deep into her lazy eye, and to run my finger along the warts of her skin. I know it sounds odd—maybe it sounds disgusting. She amazes me.
I have seen a mountain, tall, its arm sloping down into the valley, clothed in a suffocating cloak of trees. In Pennsylvania there are so many trees! I want to see this mountain heave itself, breath… I almost expect the trees to suddenly fall off, and see a giant rise before my eyes, a giant that has slept for a long time. The earth quivers and groans, and the mountains let some of their weight go.
I have also seen the mountains stretching down into the valleys, and the shadows of the clouds moving on their backs, dark, and deep.
I have been wakened by the single note of a bird calling clearly in the small hours of the morning.
I have felt a cold breeze in the morning, coming through the window, and moving over everything. It says, “Rest,” and “Be still.”
And I know… I know that I am blessed. How could I be anything but blessed? I have been gifted with a capacity to know, feel, and appreciate these things that I have mentioned. And I desire to return to the little things, and to marvel at the small things in life, to be small myself, small enough to stand in wonder of this beautiful thing called life.